o man..it took me THIS long to finally figure this out. but i finally did. It is pointless to stress over guys because if it was meant to be its meant to be. If you guys were meant to have sumthing you guys were meant to have sumthing even if you try ure hardest to push him away. Never sweat them because most of them dont give a shit how you feel. AS a matter of fact, it is THEiR job to come to u. If you're doin ure part and they're not reciprocatin the feelings then HEY... its their lost and u might as well move on. lol. WOW! i had to go thru sum shit to figure that out... but i did. im so fed up and its over so whatever, moving on...

*hope everyone is havin a wonderful wonderful summer. mine is fun at times but work is really takin a toll on my day. AT the end of the day, im passed out on my couch in front of my tv cause im so tired from the day of work...

hey guys.. it has been a realli realli long time. lol. so much drama in my life right now. too much to tell so im not gonna. hahahaha buh bye

**i hope everythin works out..

damn... school's almost over! Then the regents and shit are comin up so i'll b k 'til then.  Grrrrr.... things are so fuckin confusin... esp. guys who can't make up their damn minds u noe??? GOD! Its like u want me to write it out and spell it to u before u actually fuckin get it?? eh.. whatever...ill b patient. And u noe whats weird? Somethin that u have always wanted for so long but u never got.. well... they're all comin back thinking you still want it.. but.. it aint like that anymore. you cant get what you want whenever the fuck u want it .... sorta ironic isnt it?  Been thinkin a lot these days.. thats all...

**YAY! summer is comin up.. shit.. it'll b the best..

***Anyway.. love u guys.. and my buddies.. we gotta chill... its been a while...

.. u noe how sumtimes u want things to be one way but it never turns out that way? well, i just wish that things could have been different...